decisions......

I don't usually post what's happening in my life on this several hundred pages of blogging bliss. A lot of people say that's what they like about my blog when compared with others, that I dive deep into the heart of where God wants me amidst the trenches of the everyday. I mean there's nothing wrong with your typical "I went to class today" blog. That's just not me. I'm good with that. I like to dive deep and find out where God exists in the mundane banalities of my everyday life-- without that... life would be boring.

Anyway, I say that to explain I might break the pattern today. Not everyday--- just today, mainly because I feel like it. This is my site.

I have some choices I have to get going on, and most of them are good solid choices. The ones that aren't--- the dirty work--- are choices that I needed to make and act on a long time ago to try and get me to the center of where God wants me. I get excited about that, God doesn't let my dragging feet hamper Him from doing what's best for me and getting me out of seperation and friendships that are harmful or unhealthy (the friendship prieviously referenced in the entry "Our Equipment is Faulty"). He's showing me how to get out of stuff I ought not be. For instance, at Bible Study the other night, I got some really prophetic like words given to me on how to stand up for the truth of the Gospel and not the interpretations of men. God's showing me stuff and it rocks.

Another cool decisions that I may be going next summer to China to learn more Chinese through MSU. I always get apprehensive about doing big stuff like this because I have this rational side of me that likes to war with the adventurer side. The same thing happened when I did Spanish camp last summer. I want to go, if you must know. I long for adventures passionately, as the desert does rain or the wilderness the sweetness of dew. But there is always this part of me that whispers I should stay home, maybe work at home all summer, and not do anything because that's the smart thing to do. I don't know if I trust that voice, because if I keep listening to it, I never go anywhere.

Don't get me wrong, this isn't the rational side that shows me when something is a bad idea or financially unfeasible. I listen to that voice all the time. It's foolish not to. The fact is, I am going to need these credits anyway, it costs about the same to go China and study as it does to live on campus here in East Lansing, and if I'm going to be in debt, I might as well go to China for my trouble. I have addressed all that and it makes sense to do this. That's not the issue.

However, there is always this voice in my head that says that maybe I'll need the money for a full time job this summer or maybe I should stay at my communities or maybe I should do this or maybe I should do that. That voice asks me, "what is easier and more sane?" instead of "where is the adventure?" And frankly a voice like that, I don't trust.

Anyway, please keep praying all who read. Simply put, my line of reasoning on China could be wrong. Pray I hear God because it's not an exact science I think. (My soul has a tendency to confuse the voice of God with fear or myself--- I don't know why, they often sound nothing alike). I covet your prayers, combined they are worth more than a million trips to the uttermost parts of the earth. I love God and I praise Him with all my deep core for giving me all of you. You all, if you read this, help shape me in a way that you shan't know until the LORD comes again and wrecks the evil that sore besets us all.

And that Day, "a day like any other day", is one I eagerly anticipate.

In altissimus--- Gloria ad Deum

Daniel